Why I made another blog. :/

Right now I'm missing someone. Someone who has recently touched my heart.
But I shouldn't.
And I musn't. :/
These part few days have been weird.. AND UNCLEAR. :/

I there a truth in t saying It's a shame to be attached? Because right now, I'm attached. And i'm only 16 years old. Great. Just GARREAATT. :/

I'm an incoming college freshman of the University of the Philippines. And based on my friends stories, and as I have read on forums, you will be meeting all kinds of people in that prestigious university: geeks, nerds, jocks, happy-go-luckies, etc. -- and IT'S A SHAME TO BE ATTACHED.

Is attachement a factor when it comes to choosing friends? Because right now, I'm so effin' confused. :/ I myself had my own share of experiences. :/

None of this should've happened if it weren't for this guy who came into the picture recently. He was so nice. And he's a friend of my first love. He's sooooo SENSIBLE. If he gets to read this blog, I bet that he would get the point immediately. :/

I happened to relate to him my long kept story of my past -- the story of my first love. I mean, he's his friend. He can relate. Even though I wasn't really sure if he understood me, at least he listened.

But I was right all along. ALL MEN ARE THE SAME. One day, he, too, changed. Fcuk. :/

Now, back to the main question, why did I made another blog? Because I cannot hold onto these feelings inside of me anymore. But I couldn't hurt my guy's feeling. Because I DO love him and I can't imagine forgiving myself If ever I hurt him, especially his feelings.

Right now I'm so confused and I don't know what to do. :((