Mushy is the word. :((

"Pinipilit kong magpakasaya. Pinipilit kong patawarin ka. Pinipilit kong MAGPAKAIBA."

It was the chorus of the song Pilit by Hilera. I dunno. I was just so moved by the lyrics. Because of the connection of the song and my sentimentality. :/

FCUK. I just can't effin' move on.

I keep remembering all those memories. Even though they weren't so great. Sometimes I think he's doing all of these on purpose. To attain revenge for his friend. Waaaa. *gulp*

Everytime my phone beeps, I wish it was him texting. I get miserable everytime I try to call him because his phone was always unavailable. :/

But there's this tiny part in my head asking me: What the f*ck is happening to you? Why do you care? There never was any YOU AND HIM, is there?

He tastes like YOU -- only SWEETER. :/
I'm talking about my first love and this guy who.. who.. I dunno.

But somehow, I think I can manage. I just need to clear my mind and keep in it that there is only person I love. Nothing must change that.